Friday, October 9, 2009

A Dagger Quote

Working hard on Powdery Tattoo. I've added 5,000 words to it in the last two nights, so maybe I'll have it done in time for NaNoWriMo.

I just wanted to leave this quote from Dagger here, I thought it was special.

You have to remember, teenagers tend to divide the world into two categories: cool and not cool. I don't care how old you get, nobody ever, ever wants to land in that second category.

Thursday, September 24, 2009

Life Imitating Not Yet Made Art

I drove over to my hometown of Yucaipa today to see the damage done by the third fire in the area this month, which burned behind Yucaipa High School where I graduated from. Magic Mountain is all charred, and where the Y used to be is just a somewhat messy triangle of dust in the middle of the black.

Why is this relevant? Well, they caught the kid. Kid, as in 16 year old boy, who was seen riding off from the flames on his bike. He's suspected of lighting the other two fires this month as well.

As I've sort of mentioned, Rest In Peace Walter Montague: Completely Defeated By Life is about an arson siege that rips through a small town in Southern California not unlike Yucaipa--in fact, most likely Yucaipa. I was thinking originally more like Beaumont because the story originally popped in my head some time during the trial of Raymond Lee Oyler, who started the Esperanza Fire and several others, killing five firemen.

Walter Montague, who goes by Willy (because "Wally" is a stupid name, almost as stupid as Walter,) is your average punk ass kid on a long board. He's also the son of the Chief Arson Investigator, Noelle Springer.

Noelle, single mom extraordinaire is currently working on apprehending the arsonist who has been causing billions of dollars in damage and resources. Imagine her surprise when she finds that Willy may be the one behind the rash of fires.

Imagine Willy, completely innocent, but guilty as charged.

Imagine Noelle's shock when she discovers who really has been setting the fires--just a little bit too late.

It's more complicated than that. And I think that this will be my NaNoWriMo novel, provided I get my research done in time.

Hopefully they got the right guy over there in Yucaipa Town. Poor place is surrounded by scorched hills. It's a sorry state to see the place in.

Saturday, August 29, 2009

A New Title

The fire story has a title, finally. I've been switching between "Pyro" and "Fires in the Valley" but I always thought that Pyro was too common sounding and Fires In The Valley sounded a bit like a romance novel.

The title?

Rest In Peace Walter Montague: Completely Defeated By Life

You will be surprised to find out who Walter is and why life got to be so tough.

Story developing.

Thursday, August 27, 2009

Getting Back On Track

We've just finished moving and we're now almost done getting our new place all set up, including a nice distraction free place for me to write. This is especially handy since I intend to finish Powdery Tattoo by November so that I can participate in NaNoWriMo with whatever story I end up deciding to go with for that. I haven't thought much ahead on it.

Over the summer I wrote about four pages of Tattoo which I know is lame, but the next time I report I will have accomplished some writing. I've even penciled it into my planner, along with time for those blasted journals.

Fall is my creative time, possibly because of the colors and the smells, but certainly it creates a little place for me to be and explore the world inside my head. And knit a few scarves. I'm sorry that I'm knitting a scarf right now and not writing a book, but I need to let my mind chill for a little bit before I have to come up with anything on my own. Following a pattern is easy. The hard part is stitching it all together yourself.

The best thing for me to do right now is just plan to sit down in the quiet this week with some delicious fall smelly candles and just continue working again when I'm not feeling forced. Plus I want to get my nest back in order first.

It's a whole creative process thing.

Starting with a blank screen.

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

The Bane Of My Existence

I'm copying my paper journal by hand into five other journals that people all over the US have sent me. It's a project idea that sparked when I realized how much I'm not telling the world by keeping it on paper instead of blogging it. It's not a lot, but it's enough.

Plus I'm impatient and I like to give wee little spoilers.

It's a lot of work though, and these are essentially my big ol' project right now, besides learning my new camera and taking it out for test drives. We move to a flat this weekend, and I'm hoping to start writing again once Ty goes back to school.

Other than that these journals are keeping me busy. And not to worry, because they do contain spoilers.

Not too many though.

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

If I Had To Give You A Date...

At this point I'm going to speculate that A Powdery Tattoo will not be out before December 2010. What I want is for it to be ready before then and release it next April but with my current goal of trying to buy a house, plus the fact that we're going to be switching apartments in the next few weeks, I doubt I'll have the stamina to sit down and write anything that I can be proud of or that I'd even remotely be able to share.

National Novel Writing Month is coming up in November, and that, I promise, I will try to participate in. What will my project be for that? Well, I have a few options.

I did get Social Butterfly to 50,000, but what if I were to take it to 100,000? Okay, so it's not starting a new novel, but it's 50,000 words in 30 days like the rules say. I could get that one to 100,000 no problem, considering the first 50,000 didn't even near the climax.

A few other possibilities are Girls Are Pretty or The Fool On The Hill, which is actually part two of Golden Dawn but I think I'm going to hold off on writing it for a few years. Another idea is a book that I'm calling Pyro in my head but also Fires In The Valley but I think the latter sounds a bit like a romance novel, which it so is not. But that one needs more research I think as it involves arson investigations and some heavy scientific and psychological themes. That one might be on the backburner for a while.

The good news is that when I wrote on Twitter that I needed to borrow a fire fighter "just for a little while" the LAFD responded and asked how they could help. Wow! Even though my request sounded vaguely sexual it still got a response, and a helpful one at that! I was given the number to their arson experts so I can call and get some help if I need it. I also have a few books coming to me in the mail about arson, one of which is called, dramatically, FIRE COPS! My favorite.

I'm going to try to keep this blog just a little bit more updated, and in return I would love to see some Amazon reviews if you wouldn't mind. I know you have a lot of time on your hands and all.

Until next time...

Saturday, July 18, 2009

Just Thought You Should See

I spent time with Marina Hudson today, aka Bombshell. Well, technically this is the girl who inspired Marina's character, and the whole of Bombshell. She's still fighting the good fight and trying to get to where she wants to be. I've missed my friend.

As far as writing goes, I've taken a step back from it for the time being. We've got a lot of stuff going on at the Terwilliger home, like...buying a new home. Plus I'm switching apartments for our last few months here (or what will hopefully be our last few months) so I've got a lot of work to do. No release dates for Powdery Tattoo just yet, but I can feel that this sabbatical is coming to a close really soon. Once fall hits, I'm sure I'll be back in the mood.

Other than this, there has not been very much to report. Therefore I haven't reported anything. But thanks for checking back now and then.

Friday, May 15, 2009

Bombshell Now On Amazon

Bombshell is now available for purchase on This is most likely the best buying choice for my friends in other countries as I hear that Lulu charges a lot for shipping outside the US.


Saturday, May 9, 2009

Finished Writing "Chelsea's Demon"

This part was based entirely on a dream I had.

Crysta had always used the guise of “having a little fun” to do her most degrading or otherwise bad things. She and Chelsea were heartbroken when Crysta’s parents decided to move back down the mountain to be closer to their jobs, and though Crysta often came back up to visit Chelsea every weekend, sometimes the girls would just stay at Crysta’s house in East Highland. She had a nice little McMansion there with a handful of bedrooms, and the neighborhood was safe to walk in.

One time when they were on one of their walks when they were about 15 years old, Crysta decided to wear a midriff top with cherries all over it, even though Chelsea laughed it off as being pretty slutty. They walked along Baseline road, a brick wall covered in different vines and plants on one side of the sidewalk they walked on. Across the street were the foothills, rounded mounds that seemed to roll their way up to the big mountains they sat foot at; covered in dry brush as usual. Chelsea had her camera strapped around her neck so she could snap some shots along the way, stopping to shoot a single ragweed plant, an ancient looking fire hydrant, or some lantana growing by the wall.

They were walking and talking for a while, just shooting the shit about random boy stuff or teachers at their schools, when all of the sudden a powder-painted yellow truck pulled up beside them. The man inside was wearing a cowboy hat and a flannel shirt, he was kind of homely but he had a really nice looking beard. Naturally Chelsea drew back in fear that he might be trying to kidnap the girls, but Crysta smiled and skipped up to his truck, putting her hands on the edge of the door where the window was rolled down.

“Hi CJ,” she said cutely.

“Well hey there Crys, how you ladies been?” he said, glancing at Chelsea and tipping his hat. “Y’all want a ride?” he asked in his obviously fake southern accent. A cross on a silver chain hung from his neck.

“No CJ, we’re all right,” Crysta said. “Pick me up later though, okay?”

“You sure? It looks like a storm is heading in,” he said while pointing to the dark gray clouds overhead.

“Just pick me up at my house at like nine, okay?” and with that CJ tipped his hat and drove off.

“Who the fuck was that?” Chelsea asked her in disbelief.

“He lives by me,” she answered as they started walking again. Chelsea snapped a picture of his license plate as he drove away just in case.

“Crysta that guy was like 25, what in the hell is he picking you up for?”

“He’s cute! Don’t you love his beard?”

“A little, but Crysta don’t get yourself into trouble,” she said as she stopped to take a picture of some bright purple and yellow plants growing on a sage covered hill in the distance, the light being quite perfect as the sun broke through the clouds to shine down on the scene.

“I just want to have a little fun, is all,” Crysta said dismissively, and that night Chelsea had her mom pick her up early instead of spending the night as she had planned. When Marina asked if the girls had a fight, she said “No, Crysta’s just not feeling well I guess.” Even when she felt that something was wrong, Chelsea always covered for her friend.

Friday, April 24, 2009

Sneak Peek!

If you want a sneak peek at A Powdery Tattoo, my young adult novel, I've got the first few chapters posted at Goodreads. They're raw and unedited but I am posting it for your enjoyment anyway. Hope you like what you read! By the way, here is the cover:

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Thursday, April 2, 2009

A Head Full Of Mad

From one of my Moleskine journals for booknotes, quotes, and plot ideas:

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Monday, March 23, 2009

Whispers = Club 215

In case you were wondering, or if you had the slightest of inklings, Whispers Club in Bombshell is in fact a fictionalized version of Club 215 in Colton, CA. Here's some pictures I took today of the real club.

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As you can see it is in fact two stories with the club its self being up stairs. There's also a balcony up there for the customers and the dancers to convene on. And as you can see, it's quite small and cozy. Just thought you might enjoy seeing the real place. Was this what you had imagined?

I've gotten a few reviews of Bombshell recently that I'd like to share here just in case you haven't picked up a copy yet.

Stacey said:

Bombshell is a very strong first fiction for new author Jessie Terwilliger. Marina, the main character, is a strong and interesting young woman who has had a hard life. As the story opens, Marina is having a hard time making it in the nightclub world as an exotic dancer. She wants to get out, and go into law enforcement, but she has a lot working against her. Terwilliger's dialogue is interesting and true to life, with enough "cute" to make you root for the characters, enough darkness to make the story compelling, and enough humor to make you laugh out loud.

Bombshell gives the reader an interesting inside look at nightclubs and a harsh look at the realities of working as a stripper. I'm looking forward to reading more about Marina.

Kelly said:

Bombshell is an unforgetable story. As a busy mom, I don't have much time to read, but I made time for Bombshell! The book is so fast paced and well written, I read it in three sittings (would have done it in one, back in the pre-baby days). It is an amazing story about unlikely characters whose paths cross in a crazy way. I was super impressed with the book, for so many reasons.

First, you can tell that the author put a lot of research and time into this book. There are so many specific details that do not necessarily stand out, but they add to the depth and believability of the book. I actually found myself thinking about the book when I wasn't reading it, and in my busycrazyfull world, that is something in its own. It is described as a book about a 'topless dancer, who wants to be a cop...' but it is all that and more. I thought I might be reading about the adventures of a stripper, rather I read about the struggles of a girl that is easy to relate to. No, I've never stripped or had dreams of going into law enforcement, but I have had crazy relationships: whirlwind love that comes out of nowhere and disappears into thin air and I have always wanted better for myself.

Very cool book. I cannot talk enough about it. The various plot twists keep the reader on the edge of their seats, and the ending is something that is unforeseeable. By the end of Bombshell, you will have developed a relationship with the characters and closing the book will be bitter sweet. I can only hope there is a sequel!

Read it! You will not regret it!

Thanks to everyone who has left reviews, they help and I really appreciate them. By the way, I occasionally do stealth giveaways of the book via Twitter, so be sure that you're following me at

Still working on a few other books at the moment, I've got my brains all scrambled trying to do research. No official news as to any further release dates yet, but stay tuned.

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Paper Pages

Bruce is a man that I am very fond of. He's stocky and balding and his voice is gruff like the Cookie Monster. I love his story, and he said I could use it, but it's such a bittersweet tale that I cant seem to bring myself to write it. It's what happens to my fictional cop and it's harsh, oh it's harsh as all hell.

But then Bruce walks up all smiling and wearing a newsboy cap and all this green and plaid and he has a plastic green necklace and he says "Top of the morning to you," half jokingly as he throws a piece of trash into the trash barrel outside of David's bins and I wonder why I cant just get the fuck over it already and write the next part of the story.

I'm knitting less but I'm writing more. That is to say that I've got my young adult novel in the process of being rewritten from the pale and dry crap that it was and I've been taking a lot of notes in my journal. I've also decided that my journal is too hard to go back and sift through for notes so I've ordered a stack of Moleskines and I've bought an expensive pen to use in them so that each book has its own journal full of notes.

Five books you may or may not know about:

A Powdery Tattoo- young adult novel largely inspired by Victor back before he was a big fat asshole, also pertains to the weirdness that it was to be in high school just a year after Columbine. Okay for adults to read it's just that there aren't any sex scenes or heavy swear words.

Social Butterfly- Bombshell II which follows the story of another stripper who is largely based on Mustang Sally, broken English included. It's a year later so the lives of the characters from Bombshell have changed for worse or for better, plus gaps from Bombshell get filled in quite nicely. Not to mention lots and lots of cop stories.

Chelsea's Demon- Bombshell III which is 20 years in the future and follows these new characters with the aging original characters in might be able to figure out what I mean by that but I don't want to spoil Bombshell for those who haven't read it yet. The style is different but the details are pretty rich, and this is the one that's written 3/4 of the way through the story, nosing right up to the edge of this dramatic event but I cant quite push it over yet. Nobody dies, but...when you read it, you'll shit bricks.

Girls Are Pretty- Another high school story but this will not be appropriate for children. This is based on my senior year in band when we had this new teacher who sexually harassed and manipulated me and several other girls. Of course some of them liked it. It takes place in the semi fictional Mystic Lake, Ca, which is a real lake but not a real city. It's basically a big mud puddle that is now drying up because of the drought over in Moreno Valley. Regardless, there's a lot of sex and drama in this book, like teacher student sex, and somebody dies so that's good. I'm not really clear how all this is going to go yet.

The Fool on the Hill- Golden Dawn II, which is 15 years after the first book ended. Think about the word "malingerer" and decide if it makes sense to you, then go back and read Golden Dawn again. There's going to be a lot of backstory involving the Kade family, specifically one elder who was only briefly mentioned in the first novel. Oh and that whole idea behind the word "malingerer," just throw it out the window because you're probably wrong anyway. Oh yeah, and where's Dani?

These five stories in my head that are either partially on paper, only in note form, or not even really doing anything yet, but they're swirling around up there. And for some reason when I look into the beedie little eyes of a poppet I'm inspired to check out these new worlds. I cant help it, but it's true. They've somehow become an aid to my writing, sort of like how people who work in cubes have those metal balls suspended by strings that swing back and forth on their desks, and like Dilbert comics and such. So does the feel of ink on paper kind of inspire me, with these really nice journals I'm getting and my pen from the scrapbooking store, all acid free and fancy. My current journal is just in whatever ink I could find at the time some idea struck me.

And there is an extra one so that David can journal his beer recipes and paste the labels from the ones that he's tried and liked.

Bruce tells me for the third time the story about the time he sold a cobra to a guy when he was under cover, then turned the guy around and slapped the cuffs on him. And I never get tired of hearing that story.

I just need to tell my story now.

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

First Few Paragraphs Of "A Powdery Tattoo"

Just for fun, here's the opening to A Powdery Tattoo, a Young Adult novel I am polishing up at the moment. This is raw and unedited.

It’s not like it’s hard to get from my house to my school in the mornings, it’s a simple point A to point B bike ride. It’s hard to get lost when you only have one left turn and then a long straight line down the boulevard, I’m not saying that I can’t do it, or that I don’t do it most mornings. It’s just that if it were a job with a paycheck, the paved road beneath me with the empty fields full of dry brush and the rounded tops of Crafton Hills, the churches and parking lots would all just be a part of society that I belonged in and could relate to.

The little fast food restaurants, the drug stores, those ugly little box houses that they mowed down several hundred acres of orange trees to make room for.

But I’m 16. I don’t have a job, except that school is my job. The gas station and the car wash and all the traffic whizzing past me is all part of my path to something that I don’t particularly like to end up at when I’ve completed my regular morning journey. It’s not like it’s hard to get lost going from point A to point B, but let’s just say that I occasionally get distracted and miss first and second period to go sit and be by myself at the park.

The dry cleaner’s, the grocery store.

I have no defense, really, because I should be in school and I should be making things a little easier on Gran. How I hate upsetting Gran.

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Bombshell For $5

I have six copies of Bombshell which have defective covers as seen in this photograph:

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There was a problem at the printer and these books came out with no front cover picture, however all of the pages are correct and intact, so it is perfectly readable. I am selling these copies for $5 each to anyone who wants them, and I will sign them.

If you are interested please contact me at TeamTerwilliger at Gmail dot Com.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

This Is My Paragraph

I received an email from someone who is reading Bombshell at the moment with the subject line "This is my paragraph."

Pasted into the email is a paragraph from the book:

“The first time I ever saw a dead baby it was a SIDS call. I’ll tell

you, I cried for three hours straight that night when I got home. They do

everything they can to desensitize you in the academy, but it’s not all

guns and donut shops like they make it seem on TV. Then these god

damned kids, and not just the teenagers, but little 10 year olds, they’ll call

you a pig and say ‘I smell bacon’ but when a man breaks into their home

and steals their X-Box, who will they call? That stuff rolls off your back,

but it’s really thankless, Marina. And you know what? I can’t see myself

doing anything else, ever. It’s all I ever wanted to do, since I was little I

knew that this was where I belonged.”

I replied, "Tell me why this struck you." She said, "It’s how I feel about the job my parents do and that I once did. It explains it to a T. The way you’re taught not to care about anything except protecting, serving and solving the case. But no human can go into a home where a baby has died and not feel emotion. No person likes being ridiculed only to have to help the backstabber in their time of need."

I love writing things that people can relate to so strongly. And it makes me happy to see that she completely got the point. It made my day.

Also there is an interview posted over here that you should really look at. I discuss both books and my writing process and such, it's pretty interesting. Have a look!

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Happy Valentines Day!

Hey, whatever this holiday means to you, the signs of love are everywhere. Literally. The Wal Marts are filled with puffy pink heart balloons and little old men wander around the flower displays confused and frightened because the selection has been picked dry, while younger gents seem to head for the largest stuffed teddy bear they can find. Oh what a day to be alive.

My husband and I aren't doing much, in fact we never really do anything for this "holiday." I used to go all out with my ex boyfriend in high school and even made him a realistic message in a bottle, which was a poem written on some paper that I crumbled up and rubbed in the dirt, I even singed the edges for added effect and filled the bottle with dried rose petals. He didn't appreciate it.

David and I are giving the gift of ukulele's to each other and we will be dining on filet mignon that I got for $7.99 a pound. Then there's some stuff that I can't tell you about here that will happen later.

Of course I don't always leave out the good parts. If you want sex scenes Bombshell's got them, so grab a copy and get your fix there. The best one I think starts on page 137. ;)

So happy love day, let me know in the comments section what you're doing! And if it stays blank, I know exactly what you all are doing and why you're too busy to come by and comment!

Thursday, February 12, 2009

Q and A With Jessie Terwilliger

There's now a Goodreads discussion group where I am answering any and all questions about both Bombshell and Golden Dawn.

If you have not yet joined I highly suggest that you do. It is a wonderful site for finding new things to read and organizing your books. This is my new Myspace.

Also, if you haven't gotten a copy of Bombshell yet, look in the sidebar here for the Buy It Now from Lulu button. Furthermore, both Bombshell and Golden Dawn are being offered directly from me autographed and signed with free shipping. It's all in the sidebar.

I'm trying to figure out some kind of gathering that can happen soon, I don't know when, I don't know where, but we will gather.

Thanks to everyone who came by and left nice comments or dropped me nice emails, they help me to keep going.

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Bombshell: Now Available At

Bombshell is on sale now.

I want to thank every one of my visitors today for stopping by, from those who have stuck with me through the years to my new friends from Goodreads and all of the other weird little corners of the internet that I hang out on. Please let me know you were here today in the comments section, even if you do not purchase a copy. I will be answering all comments, so feel free to throw any questions you may have my way.

Also, the first person to post their Lulu order number in the comments section will receive a personalized signed copy of Golden Dawn from me, so hurry up and post it! If I get a lot of order numbers posted, I may do drawings for more, so the more participation from you guys the better!

For my friends in other countries who are choosing to wait until the Amazon release to get a better deal on shipping, don't forget to say hello as well. Be a part of the party!

And now, a behind the scenes look at Bombshell. Tell me if you make it all the way through!

Thanks again to everyone from the bottom of my heart, I couldn't have done this without your encouragement and support. Don't forget to leave ratings and reviews on your favorite reading sites, and let me know if you blog about it or Twitter it or mention it anywhere else, it helps to promote the book.

Let's party!

Monday, February 9, 2009

Party On The Internet!

The release of Bombshell Wednesday morning at 12:01 Pacific time is going to be centralized right here. You'll not only be given the link to where you can buy your copy of Bombshell, but you'll be treated to a video of me talking about the book "behind the scenes" style.

Don't worry about staying up late, the party is going on all day long! The beauty of the internet is that you can be fashionably late by several hours and time zones!

Furthermore, the first person who can show me their Lulu order number proving that they bought Bombshell will be given an autographed copy of The Fight for Golden Dawn. If you already own the book, you'll get a $20 Amazon gift certificate instead.

(Just to let you know, I am also now selling autographed copies of Golden Dawn directly from my home through PayPal with free shipping. Click over on the sidebar for details. Autographed Bombshells to follow.)

There may be more prizes added on a whim depending on the level of interaction I get from the visitors here, so do be sure to comment and be social, let me know if you came by, if you purchased the book, or if you're waiting for the Amazon release to get cheaper shipping (which I completely understand.)

It's an online book release party and everyone's invited! So don't forget to stop by and say hello!

Friday, February 6, 2009

The Girl Who Started It All

I have dedicated Bombshell to the lovely gal in the boots and fishnets down in front, for she is the inspiration for Marina, and the book as a whole.

Saturday, January 31, 2009

Very Many Lots Of Things

  • So Golden Dawn has suddenly been re-discovered and the reviews are rolling in. Found this one on Amazon today:
    I enjoyed this captivating read by Jessie Terwilliger. It was relateable and very interesting, especially for readers very local to the Inland Empire. Many of the landmarks mentioned are indeed real; which makes the novel very believeable, as most of us know of, or actually know children in the "system." I am anticipating the release of Jessie's next novel, with her talent and intellect, I'm sure I'll be just as entertained.
What's interesting about this is that Bombshell also has these local Inland Empire landmarks and such since it takes place in San Bernardino. So if people are reading from around where my books are being written about, they're certainly appreciating the locality aspect of the books, and that makes me smile. I write what I know, and the Inland Empire is all I've known for 25 years, so I consider myself to be an expert. Plus I'm stoked that someone gave me such an awesome review. Be sure to leave your reviews too, they help to promote the books. Golden Dawn is also going to be available for the Kindle soon as well.

  • Bombshell is looking for reviewers. I will be happy to send e-book versions to those who have blogs or websites. I will also send hard copies of the book upon request. I'm very excited because it's coming out in just over a week, and I think everyone is pretty hyped up about it. I just hope that you find that it lived up to its hype, I mean I personally love it to death. To describe it in two words I'd just go with "love" and "danger." Golden Dawn could be described in two words as "cold" and "violent." For those who didn't like Golden Dawn, Bombshell will offer something different, and for those who did like Golden Dawn, Bombshell will offer something more. It's more entertaining than intrusive like Golden Dawn was.
  • I want to warn those who live outside the US that the shipping rates that my publisher offers are what you might consider outrageous, and I don't blame you. Not to worry, because the book will be available at all major online retailers within six weeks of the release, and you will be notified. But if you simply cant wait, then go ahead and order it straight from Lulu and check the shipping prices and options. For those within the US the shipping rates are fairly standard.
  • There has been question as to whether I will sell autographed copies directly, and I will be happy to do that if there is interest in it. If so, please leave a comment below.
  • Don't forget to add the book to your To Be Read pile on
I think that's it for tonight. I'll let you know if anything else comes up.

Sunday, January 25, 2009

A Good Honest Bombshell Review

I asked Kay of Kay's Bookshelf to review Bombshell. I don't know Kay, from IRL or online, but I happened across her great book review site and I liked how well worded her reviews were, like she's talking to you and telling you exactly why you should read this book, or why you shouldn't.

Kay's review of Bombshell is honest and absolutely on the dot as far as recognizing the symbolism and cliches, even if those cliches were put there on purpose ;)

Kay calls it a romance novel, and I've just been calling it general fiction, but she's from the very romantic country of Romania so I have to take her word for it.

"I liked the fact that the book was partially set in a strip club, having strippers as characters, because of the novelty of it (at least for me, I think it's the first such book I've ever read). I have never thought being a stripper was the same as prostitution (nor do I now, of course), and yet the book opened my eyes in a way I couldn't quite put my finger on. I am old fashioned enough to have thought that being a stripper equals lack of morals -- right now I think being a stripper equals lack of opportunities way more (as in the book were quite a few girls, including Marina, who chose this career because they needed the money (Marina to pay her school, her friend Silver to raise her girl) and there was no other way to make them). It all of course gets down to "judge not lest ye be judged", a saying I try to live by, and parts of the book have helped me to do just that." Read the full review

Monday, January 19, 2009

Traffic vs. Traffic Contest

Another contest underway! This is the Traffic vs. Traffic contest and by participating you could win not only an autographed copy of Bombshell, but also a lovely "Bombshell" t-shirt made with Swarovksi crystals from Just Jen. From the Just Jen website:

You don't have to be a blond to be a bombshell! Our Bombshell t shirt is created with a cursive font t0 accentuate all your curves.

Made with Swarovksi crystal, the only crystal with 14 perfectly cut facets for the greatest sparkle. Select your crystal color.

100% cotton, made in USA.

You will have choice of both shirt color and crystal color (but may I recommend a black shirt with hot pink crystals for the full Jessie Terwilliger's Bombshell effect?) You may also choose your style and size.

So how do you win this fabulous shirt to wear while reading this fabulous book? You have two options.

  1. If you have a website or blog, link to and send as many people as you can over here. The traffic will be recorded through, and I will see each hit that comes in from your URL. The person with the most amount of hits coming from their site to mine will win.
  2. If you do NOT have a website or blog or you feel like this is a better option, direct some ACTUAL traffic to my site, and by that I mean cars, pedestrians, etc. How do you do that? Signs. The idea is to create a series of thought provoking signs along a stretch of road (be sure that you follow your city's laws in regards to putting up sign advertisements and that you don't upset your neighbors.) The first sign could say, "She wants to quit dancing." The second one, a few telephone poles or trees down could then say, "He wants to help her." After that, a sign that says "But can he be trusted?" with one final sign after that with the website's URL ( I want you to be as creative as possible, posting the signs in the most unique AND LEGAL place (nudist bridge? Heavily frequented park? In the same neighborhood as a strip club?) and send in a picture. Alternatively, you can order a free car magnet from for your vehicle if you have a daily commute or if your city has laws against signs. Pictures can be emailed to TeamTerwilliger At Gmail Dot Com.
Keep it safe and keep it legal. You have until February 1st. Go now!

Saturday, January 17, 2009

Bombshell Winners Announced

This was a tough call as I only got a handful of entries, but I have decided two winners on a whim.

Mrs. Flax and Julie

But I still want to thank everyone for participating, and don't fret because there are sure to be some more chances to win coming soon, and more prizes are going to be added such as swarovski crystal Bombshell shirts, bookmarks, and the like.

Perhaps you would like to know my answers? All right, here they are.

  1. What is the worst thing you have ever done for money (worked at Burger King? Dug through elephant poo? Sold your body? Think hard.)
I had to think about this one. Was it the few months I spent as a housekeeper for a mad Russian doctor who lived in a mansion full of bedrooms that were larger than my apartment?, because I learned a lot from that experience and it may end up as a side plot of a book someday. No, the worst thing I ever did for money was work for Hickory Farms, or as I refer to it, Hickory Hell. You know, those cute people wearing blue aprons in the mall who sell cheese and beef sticks. Yes, that. The job sucked because of the sample giving. You had to approach random people throughout the mall and go "Want to try some beef stick?" People would shout at me that my shit was overpriced, or that it was sad that we couldn't even give it away. I got in a fight with a lass on my last day because she got all up in my face and was quite upset that I offered her my beef. She was vegan. How could I have known?
  1. Is exotic dancing/stripping akin to prostitution? Why? Site your sources if any.
No. Prostitution is selling sex. Exotic dancing is dancing exotically and sometimes intoxicated, depending on the club. There is a very big difference. If a dancer sells sex, she is a prostitute, but the girl next to her who does not sell sex is not a prostitute by proxy. See?
  1. If the person you loved absolutely hated you, would you shorten their life by 10 years if it meant that they would love you back?
No, I just couldn't see myself doing that to someone. Witchcraft maybe, but not shortening someone's life. I can still love a person even if it isnt reciprocated.
  1. If your city decided to put in a strip club, or for those whose cities already have them decided to close the strip club(s,) write your argument to your city for or against the placement/removal of this club. If you cannot include your town name, just call it "Small Town" or "Big City" accordingly.
Dear Beaumont, Ca,

If we don't get a strip club, we won't know what to do with our loitering teenagers when they come of age. Also it might keep more idiots off the road during normal driving hours. If we could keep everyone contained inside of a building full of naked girls for just a few hours a day, Beaumont would thrive. The lines at Wal Mart would be insignificant. Either strip club or bowling alley, whatever you think might be best. We just need something to do here.
  1. When you read an article about a female stripper being raped, beaten, murdered, etc. do you feel that she was asking for it with the type of job that she had? Should she have assumed the risk? Did she get herself into this mess by doing the work that she did?
No, I feel really bad for girls who get hurt doing this job. People need money, for some this is the way to get it, and they shouldn't be punished because of it. Nobody "asks" for it, but there are times when people need to be smarter about their decisions. Don't tell people your name or where you live, or add them on Myspace, just don't do it! Be smart about this stuff! Your life could be at risk.


If you were a stripper, what would be your stage name and what song would you dance to?

I would be Henrietta Pussycat. Do you love it? A throwback to your childhood AND it sounds dirty. I would dance to "Lullaby" by The Cure. I could get my hips going to that song, I could I could.

Thanks for playing along, I'll let you know when the next chance to win is.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Win An Advance Copy Of Bombshell

So you want to win an autographed copy of Bombshell before it's available to everyone else? I don't blame you, it's a damn fine book. You won't read another book like this, especially not for free.

The rules of the game are simple. You will answer the following questions either down below in the comments, via email (teamterwilliger at gmail dot com) or on your blog, which you will have to leave a link to the entry in the comments or via email so I can come read them.

There is no set amount of winners and winners will be chosen on a whim. I alone will be judging them based on how well I feel that the questions were answered.

But there is a catch. If you win a copy, you must promise to do a review either on your blog (if you have one) or on, plus you will be asked to leave the review on the sites that sell the book (Lulu, Amazon, Barnes&Noble, etc.)

Contest ends 1/16/09

On to the questions. Answer as thoroughly as possible.

  1. What is the worst thing you have ever done for money (worked at Burger King? Dug through elephant poo? Sold your body? Think hard.)
  2. Is exotic dancing/stripping akin to prostitution? Why? Site your sources if any.
  3. If the person you loved absolutely hated you, would you shorten their life by 10 years if it meant that they would love you back?
  4. If your city decided to put in a strip club, or for those whose cities already have them decided to close the strip club(s,) write your argument to your city for or against the placement/removal of this club. If you cannot include your town name, just call it "Small Town" or "Big City" accordingly.
  5. When you read an article about a female stripper being raped, beaten, murdered, etc. do you feel that she was asking for it with the type of job that she had? Should she have assumed the risk? Did she get herself into this mess by doing the work that she did?

If you were a stripper, what would be your stage name and what song would you dance to?

Saturday, January 10, 2009

The BART Shooting

This is somewhat on topic, about as much as the last post was as it deals closely with a side storyline within Bombshell: accidental police shootings.

Yes, accidental.

I was asked to respond to what I thought of the videos by a reader. I watched the different videos of the event from all the different angles, and based on the reaction of the officers it was clearly an accident. After the shot is fired, they stand up, all three put their hands on their head, an indication of panic and worry in body language. The officer who fired the shot and another officer stare at each other for a few seconds, and then they go to turn the man over to check for signs of life.

Was it a tragedy? Yes. Was it brutality? Think again.

Just judging on the reactions of the officers right when it happened, and the fact that the man resigned right afterwards sends a clear message that he knows that he messed up. They say that he was going for his taser, which in some agencies is kept on their gun holster in like an extension part. In a struggle to keep this guy still and everything that is going on, it can and did happen. Accidents happen. There is no way that any police officer could honestly pin someone down and murder them in cold blood in front of a train full of witnesses and two other officers right there. That was not adrenaline, abuse of power, that was clearly every officer's worst nightmare.

That's not to say that it hasn't happened before that way. I can't seem to remember where this was exactly so I can't google for the articles on it, but here in the Inland Empire where I live out toward Rialto or Colton there was an officer who had a Marine on the ground. The Marine was following orders and being submissive, but he asked if he could get up off the ground. The officer instructed him to get up, and then shot him twice. Twice. He tried to claim that the man was reaching for a gun, but when that story didn't pan out he claimed that the gun went off accidentally. That man now sits in jail, because it's clear what really happened there.

How do we prevent something like this from happening again? Petition all agencies to train their officers to carry their tasers on the opposite side of the gun, backwards in a holster so that the officer can reach across their body with their dominant hand to draw the weapon. I actually know of an officer who refuses to carry a taser for this among many other reasons, including the fact that he doesn't want to accidentally tase himself.

You can also prevent it by not resisting the police. That's a thought, eh?

It just seems to me that any time someone dies at the hands of the police it becomes a huge controversy, be it the 13 year old boy who drove a car into a group of LAPD officers or the 18 month old who was being used as a human shield by her father as he shot at the SWAT team, it will always be controversial.

And isn't that great?

A police officer can't kill a person, accidentally, justifiably, or on purpose, without it being looked into. The checks and balances exist, people. They do.

Thursday, January 8, 2009

Cop Stories

It's been sort of interesting collecting all of these stories for Bombshell. I was told that I made a huge mistake in referring to Graham Green as "Officer," as he works for the Sheriff's department and is therefore called "Deputy." I've been given information about procedures, academy, calls, and they all come with stories of course which I sprinkled into Bombshell and have been using in books two and three of the series. Some stories are incredibly funny, ironic, or just something that struck me as something to write about.

While looking through an online friend's Myspace photo album of her infant son who died of sids, it reminded me of the gentle officer who told me that his first SIDS call made him cry for three hours after he got home. He said the emotion of it all, the screaming mother, the grief-stricken father, it just hit him like a ton of bricks that sent him into uncontrollable sobbing. Of course he remained professional on the job, but once the uniform was off it all caught up to him.

At the end of the day they are still human beings. I tried very hard to convey that with my characters. Not only with the cop, but with the stripper. Strippers aren't sex-hungry devil women (or men.)

That's kind of a blanket statement but so is saying that all cops are callous assholes. They're not. I've met a few who have told me stories that suggest otherwise.

Just a thought I was having, is all.

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Bombshell On Goodreads!

Add it to your To Be Read piles!



Saturday, January 3, 2009

You Bring The Smokes, I'll Bring The Beer

...though I will probably just watch you partake in those things, they're not really my style. Anyway, Bombshell is still scheduled to come out on the 11th of February, despite some drama regarding the funding and the manuscript being stuck in Oregon for a while due to Snowmageddon.

I'm feeling that a complete deconstruction isn't necessary on the final edit after all. I will keep what I have, but I will do a lot of fixing and adding, mostly adding because now I've really been through some situations that give me insight. Someone who one of the characters is loosely based off of died in real life, and I believe that it will put one of the characters in a more awkward position than it originally had. And dealing with loss, well...I haven't really dealt with loss since the situations surrounding Golden Dawn's theme, but now I have, and I think it will help the story.

One of my editors did make the remark that I'm not very good at writing about feelings, but I think the past few weeks have helped me to actually experience some. Not that my life is always perfect but I'm mostly carefree and not too stressed so these things have given me something to think about and learn from.

I haven't been writing because I've been waiting to redo Bombshell, though I have been itching to work on a few other stories. But I know if I start them I'll only be distracted when my manuscript gets here, so I've been knitting instead. I'm promising to knit 25 scarves this year because I turned 25 and I have oodles and oodles of time on my hands now that my husband is leaving for CHP academy.

Anyway, when all this is done, let's celebrate somehow, hey?